forgiveness

did anyone hurt you? anyone made you look like a fool? have you ever felt being betrayed by your closest friends? if yes, read this. i understand how it feels. you want to kill and smash their bones, right? you curse them everyday and every minute of your life and you even wish for them to die, right? well, it's not entirely wrong to think about doing those things. what's wrong is actually doing those. i mean, that would be insane. the thing is we can't change the fact that it will really take some time for you to have the courage to forgive someone. one thing is pride, another is ego and of course, it is because you still hate the person and you don't want to move on. if you say "no, i have moved on, it's just that i can't forgive that person yet" then, i'm sorry to say this you haven't moved on yet! it's true, that sometimes the hardest things to do in life are the right things to do. when someone hurt you so bad or betrayed your trust, it will never be easy for you to forgive. in your mind, it will never be right to forgive the person who wronged you. especially if it's someone who you really loved and cared for a long time. well it really depends on what degree the situation is, and to what extent the fault went. you know what does it really takes for you to move on? believe it or not, the first step is to FORGIVE. it takes time to mend a broken heart and it also take a lot of time to do some effort for changes. it takes time to get used to the new path you've chosen after whatever tragedy you went through. it takes some time to move on and it takes some time to forgive. it took me almost five years to forgive some of my friends. it was worth it, or so atleast i thought it was. Now, we see each other as strangers. because you can't bring back something that has been destroyed. friendship and relationship are not recycable just like any wrecked "ship" in the sea. you can be with them again but it will never be the same. it will never be good as new but you can do things to save things that can be saved. or maybe you can start over, let go of the things that hurt you, learn to forgive so you can move on, love that person again like you've never been hurt before. who knows, maybe it'll work this time around. it's just a matter of choice. There are times that i still feel the anger inside my heart. memories won't leave you alone. memories haunt you and you have to learn how to deal with it to avoid the rage. you have to find ways to divert your attention to happy thoughts. forgiveness is not a bad thing. yes, it will take a lot of courage and pride but it will surely be worth it. being unable to forgive restricts you from moving on. while being able to forgive gives you a new life and a little sense freedom.