pity

When we feel that world is not being fair to us we tend to pity ourselves. We tend to cry, blame people and blame God. We use all our power to show pride but at the end of the day we can't help but to pity ourselves. I hate to say it but this is normal for people. It's never an easy task to admit that you're weak and that you pity yourself.

What should you do?

Let go of the things that make you sad. Let go of the people who don't treat you right. Leave them behind and start a new life without them.

You love that person? You can't live without that person? You're happiness is that person itself?

If that person feels the same way too, you shouldn't feel the way you're hurting right now. You shouldn't be there cursing the world because people were unfair.


Is it really that hard to let go?

Yes. It is hard. That's why you have to be with your strongest companion in your weakest days. You should be with God. You have to be with your friends. You have to learn how to love yourself first and how to trust yourself that you can do this.

You have to leave the people who hurt you and hurting you.


Good day

push over

have you had a partner or a friend that push you over your limits? have you ever meet someone who always ask you a favor that you can't say no to?

i've been a push over too, and i hate it. sometimes i do things that i really don't want to do just to please that person. i just cry out of anger because i really don't want to do it but i can't stop. i can't stop because i fear of losing that person. i've been asking myself as to why i'm doing such things. i ask myself over and over, do i really have to do this for that person? is it even worth it? is it even fair? and lastly, can that person return the favor or this is just a one way thing? sometimes, i really want to crush myself and just die because of being such a push over. i know and i feel that something's or someone's being unfair to me, but i just can't quit it, i can't say no.

example:

"hey can you do this (proposal paper) for me?"

ME: hmm. i have a lot of things to do at home later, you know i do chores and my homework too.

"pls? :D"

ME: o..ok. yeah sure! :| :)

at home...

ME: what the.. what now? i have lots of things do! i don't have much time.. oh well, then i guess i won't sleep all night :(

at school..

"hey! are you done with my paper?"

ME: yeah. here. :)

"oh hey, you did this the wrong way. come on! i trusted you on this one. damn, what am i going to do now? i'll not be able to pass this. PLS don't talk to me for the meatime ok? "

me: sorry. maybe we can do some changes :(

"no you can't, i have to pass this now! goodbye"

later...

ME: WHAT THE FUCK! I DID EVERYTHING THAT I COULD AND THAT'S MY REWARD???!

that was just an example of many scenarios that i've been through. that's not even the worst favor i got from someone. being a push over is really not good especially when you're already old enough to think for yourself and to say no.

but eventually the fear will fade and you'll learn how to say no. just don't be afraid. never let anyone to be your master, never let anyone stomp on you and have a little pride for yourself. remember to always have something left for yourself. (this especially applies when it's about money, that's a serious matter)

good day everyone. :)